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Baby says I can't come with him And I had read all of this in his eyes Long before he even said so Why go, I asked You know and I know why And it'll be just as quiet when I leave As it was when I first got here I don't expect anything I don't expect anything Take care I've been hurt before Too much time spend on closing doors You may hate me, but I'll remember to love you Goodbye Don't cry You know why And it'll be just as quiet when I leave As it was when I first got here I don't expect anything I don't expect anything All the waves of blame arrange as broken scenery As they steal your best memories away What if I was someone different in your only history? Would you feel the same As I walk out the door Never to see your face again Never to see your face again And it'll be just as quiet when I leave As it was when I first got here It'll be just as quiet when I leave As it was when I first got here I d...

Day 4: Discuss your first love and first kiss My first love is my childhood friend , my very first boyfriend and ex-boyfriend. He's very manly with good looks and is very charismatic , smart , sporty and more. We were quite young when we dated , so I somewhat forgotten some details . Since he lives faraway , we seldom meet... The only time we get to meet is when I go back to my mother's hometown , or his parents come to Malaysia for a holiday ( which is once a year ). I liked him for around 3-4 years before he asked me to be his girlfriend. Since i'm a very independent girl , I seldom ask guys for help ( very shy too ! ). But my weakness are hills and mountains... and yeah...amazingly I think our sparks happened in the forest...super awkward...( where he suddenly held my hand in the dark.. ) .. that part touched me perhaps.. But since it's a long distance relationship , things are hard for us : We are young , We are not certain about our future and we have oth...

WHEN she runs away...... by C and J Cast : She Him Other supporting characters Final Narration The Story : "What and unlucky girl" she thought to herself. The girl stood there for another 30 minutes and the guy is smilling in his own world , not even looking at her . She walks away into the dark night again.After walking for 500 metres already , thoughts ran in her mind , " I think I should just go " , she said to herself . * Ring ring... ( Her cellphone rings ) . He's calling.... " Should I pick up ? " * some voice " LET HIM WAIT !!! " Then she thinks that it's enough , she picks up , " halo " She picks up the phone " Daughter , you eat ady ma ? " She answered , " Hi mum , i've ate...i'm in a rush...gtg mum...take care and bye " And there he was....sweating...sweating from running , running to see her. She not in sight yet. At the same time , she ( the girl ) t...

The very 1st two stars that I've made xD * the left one so cacat right ? haha xD but i love the right one xD

Worn out.... tomorrow = dooms day for me ( getting back my law paper is worst than getting back any major exams' paper...... ) my mood sucks i can't sleep , can't eat... not really because of tht as well i'm already being very realistic maybe good things are not meant for me... i can't even play Kabalevsky with a tinge of happiness anymore.... now i knw what CL meant by " i can't play with a pure heart anymore " I feel like playing Rachmaninoff's pieces now.... I feel like playing Vocalise ( on violin...even though i suck @ it ) ....

damn i'm dissapointed now.... hopefully your decision will change soon i'm anticipating it to change....really pretty please =) oh wait...... we still need to solve that problem.... brain storming-ing.....ish..

The year 2008 have been a great and adventerous year for me.. many unexpected things happened too... Friendship , realizations , problems , dilemmas ....etc.... 2008......my spiritual life I think i have improved quite a lot in my spiritual life . I learnt that GOD is not that big , huge and unreachable for me . YOUTH CAMP really helped me a lot in my spiritual self . I am more daring to go for altar call and not afraid of slainting ( even though i haven't slain yet.. ) . Alter call is amazing . GOD just touched me and tears just flows uncontrollably . Claudia prayed for me on the 1st night when we didn't went for altar call . That is one of the 1st few times i got touched by the presence of GOD . Zanne prayed for me on Monday .. and that's the time when i cried the most ..because i felt more of GOD'S love and i got to learn to forgive myself and just letting it go . In a nutshell , I love what GOD has done in my life in 2008 especially in spiritual learning =)...But i ...

I just check my mail today Found something interestinG It's really lovely and sweet thank you for caring =)

I'm alright now =) It's no biggie nothing serious xD I JUST think TOO MUCH!! Thank you so much for making me feel comfortable ( to the 2 persons , you knw who you are xD ) AND to the another person It's ok.... i'm back to being me now =D tq

Oh man....it hurts.... I just read your blog post , I'm so sorry if I hurt you too . It is not entirely your fault . Blame my curiosity and suspicion . I would like to thank you that you opened my mind and heart to understand more on this matter . I also did not know it is THIS complicated before , I only knew it after you told me yesterday . I felt the sourness too. I think I have to agree with what you said with the " jealousy kills " slogan . I wonder how could I combat this weird feeling . It did not happened before as I tried to tolerate it as it is not serious . I have a feeling that this is more serious than before.. Both of us did not know the truth yet . I think only the person knows . I know you and me also got distracted by this and not only us , many other " victims " are too fallen in this . Maybe we are one of the main ones . Oh ya , do not ever said you are intruding , because you are not . I think i am an intruder too , well , not intruder...

Love is a very complicated thing Tried to avoid it.. But Fell into it... Even though it's already 1 1/2 years... But still fall into this... Vowed not to involve in this stuff again But went into this again... Sacrifices made , jealousy occurs , admiration grow , memories grew deeper and the picture is more vivid... Picturing the same image before entering slumberland Got excited for little stuff Rumours said , got so excited Feeling of perasan-ess grows yet doubt deepens Clumsy , Blur , Aware ,... Sent chills down my spine Even if we can't cross everyday a little glance is good enough Sometimes I wonder... should ______ or not too.. risked of getting heartbreaks or ended up getting a positive feedback it's to complicated the way muah write is also so weird and complicated Can I forget this But i just can't __ just stuck in my mind and mua just can't get _____ out